我经常做的另外一种梦是打人（或者动物）的梦。过去都是我打人耳光，但是怎么打都手上无力，很窝囊的。后来我慢慢好点了，可以用比较重的拳脚打人了。后来发展到用武器打人，还有动物，什么榔头啦，刀啦。不要以为我很暴力，其实我打的都是坏人哦。也许这体现了我的极端控制欲？

Another kind of dreams I alwasy have is beating somebody (or some animal) up. I used to slap other’s face in my dream, but I was always powerless. My hands were soft when they fell on the skin. Later on, it becomes little better. I get more power when I beat them up.  Now I can use weapons in my dreams to hit people or animal, like hammer or knife, etc..

Actually, I’m not that violent. All the people/animal I hit in my dreams deserve it. Maybe it shows my extreme will to control things?

我的梦里面的一种，家里的墙壁后面，壁橱里面，或者地板下面有暗道。进去以后就是很长很长的隧道，好象要通道世界的另一端。今天看电视才注意到，我一看到暗道就心头一酥。

One kind of dreams I always have was about secret passages. There’s some secret passage behind the wall or in the closet or under the floor. After I entered, it’s a long long tunnel, almost to the other end of the world. I just noticed today that whenever I see secret passages in TV, I feel shiver down my spine, a pleasant one.

梦见一个俱乐部，类似于VINTAGE SHOP，里面有好多风格不同的房间，好多衣橱里装满了各式VINTAGE CLOTHING。客人可以更换不同衣服在那里玩。我想真是拍照的绝好地方啊。准备什么时候来拍。

后来俱乐部突然出现了谋杀案，一个不知名的女人死了，属于那种平淡偏讨厌类型的。警方开始调查，就把俱乐部关了。我及其不满，于是准备自己着手调查，好让俱乐部早日重新开张，我好拍照。

警方在盘问俱乐部老板，但是我觉得他隐瞒了些什么，好似有难言之隐。我决定帮他忙，开始偷偷翻查他的营业记录。发现他所说的案发当天的情况和事实有出入。我以为没人看到，马上把营业记录给我妈让她去做个拷贝。谁知道有摄像头被拍下来了。这时候俱乐部老板变成了我爸爸，但是是那种似乎有关系但有很疏远的样子。于是我爸爸告发了我妈妈，把她送入的监狱。但是大概因为我是女儿，他还是没告我。于是我很不开心，和他闹别扭。后来他暗示我，其实那个女人是他杀的，他是怕我们把他卖了。我说即使我们知道是你干的，也会帮你隐瞒的。后来他还是撤销了起诉，把我妈放了。

后来我就醒了，上班也迟到了。

 这个梦我的总结是，人即使是最亲近的人也不敢相信，缺乏信任感。

I dreamt about this perfect club the other day. It’s sort like a huge vintage store. There are many different styles of rooms in it. Some of the room have clothet full of vintage clothing. So the guest can play dress-up in the club. It’s an excellent location for my project, I was planning to shoot there some other day.

But there’s a murder in the club. Some ordinary towards unlovely woman was killed. The police locked down the club. I was extremely disappointed & decided to investigate on my own (somehow I was very confident about that), so that the club can reopen & I can shoot there.

 The police was questioning the club owner. But I felt he was hiding sth for someone. I decided to help him. I checked the club records secretly & found what he said was not true accoding to the records. I immediately give the records to my mom to make a copy. But I didn’t notice I was recorded on the surveillance camera. Then the club owner turned into my father, that type of emotionally attached but still far-away father. My father turned my mom into jail. Maybe because I’m his daughter, he didn’t report me. I was unhappy about him & gave him a hard time. Then he suggested he was the killer, he was afraid that we would out him. I said we would cover for you even if we knew it. In the end, he cancelled the accusation against my mom.

& then I woke up & was late for work.

My conclution is people are afraid to trust anyone including their clothest ones. Lack of trust.

Do we really own a female vision? I say screw that. I’m a human.

梦见自己狂哭啊，真的很伤心。不知道现实里还哭的出来么。

我借住某庙观的招待所里，非常脏。突然听说我设计的地板要被买下了，然后别人把我设计的地板做了出来，黑区区的两块，凹凸不平。

 I dreamed about crying. It was really heart-breaking cry in my dream. I don’t know if I can do the same thing in real life.

I was living at the rest house of a temple. It was really gross there. I heard the floor I designed was sold. Somebody put my design into product. They were two pitch black uneven blocks.

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我每天早上起床就在想为什么现实不是梦境的延续，我好不容易花一个晚上完全适应了梦里的世界，到了早上一被吵醒所以的东西又都泡汤了，一切又都不重要了，还是活在规规矩矩的现实里。很想念我失去的世界们。还是记一笔吧，梦见和女朋友小尾巴去吃拉面，她工作的很幸苦啊，又碰到了一个讨厌的摄影师。梦见我拿了别人的一个DC，完全不会用。

我要梦见太子卧龙床，从现在起默念“太子卧龙床”一直到睡着。

 又到了作SUMMERZINE的时候。去年的ZINE是这样的。今年完全不知道做什么。

 I wake up every morning wondering why dreams are not the extension of life. I spent the whole night getting used to the world in dream, only to find it in vain when I wake up. Nothing in the dreams matters anymore. I still live in this prim life. I miss the world I lost.

Just to remember. I dreamed about my girlfriend Piglet. We went to have noodles together. She was really tired from her work & met some annoying photographer. I get a digital camera from sb, but didn’t how to use it at all.

被误打了大象晕眩针。“恩，马上就要有感觉了，你觉得是左眼疼还是右眼疼？”“都不疼啊。”“啊？”“我只是好奇，拿起药瓶看，你就往我腿上扎了一针。”“哦，奇怪，这两天老是打到没事的人身上。”

哦，还有，全班同学都动员我去和某完全不熟的同学结婚，我说不要了吧，后来逃跑，就碰到被扎针了。

我仍然觉得孤独的难受，但是找不到双胞胎，照镜子也没用。

第一次，或者至少是第一次，这个梦不再是噩梦了。原来装样子也可以作医生。

 I was injected Elephant’s Dizzy Shot by mistake. “Hold on. You will feel it soon. Does your left eye hurt or your right one does?”"Neither does.”"Really?”"Yeah. I was only curious about the name of the shot. When I picked up the bottle to read, you just gave me the shot on my leg.”"Oh. Strange, I’ve been given injections to normal people alot these days.”

 And before that, I was mobilized by all of my classmates to marry one classmate I didn’t even know. I said maybe not this time, & then I ran away until I got the shot on my leg.

I still feel unbearable loneliness. I can’t find my twin sister, & looking at the mirror doesn’t work.

For the first time, this dream is not a nightmare anymore. So you can pretend to be a doctor.