Unnamed Symptom
March 13th, 2008
像无数个夜晚一样，我坐在电脑前，疯狂地点击网页，祈望能看到某件事，某句话，带给我安慰。很累了，心有点隐隐作痛，窗外的鸟都叫了，但是我还是不肯上床。我一直不知道这个毛病叫什么，或者叫它空虚症。我像一个饥饿的人疯狂搜寻食物，但是所有都是虚无。
Like all the other nights, I’m sitting in front of my computer, clicking millions of links, in the hope of seeing some event, a sentence that will comfort me. I’m so tired that my heart start aching. The birds start singing outside. I still don’t wanna go to bed. I never know how to call this symptom, maybe we can call it emptiness. I’m like a hungry man in the desprate search for food, all in vain.
March 13th, 2008 at 6:29 am
good night, sleep late, photographer
March 14th, 2008 at 8:43 am
i think spreading our attention outward
onto “unknown” (is is a psychic space)
of the links, i think we actually often
pick up more emptiness, more absense
of presence–its odd the whole situation.
March 14th, 2008 at 12:23 pm
比如说，某天12点逼自己睡早一次，然后早上8点一定起来，然后拿相机到外面去。如果觉得有点值，以后就有个“早”睡的理由了。
March 14th, 2008 at 12:34 pm
desperate
漏个 e ，害我查半天。
March 17th, 2008 at 8:41 pm
也许是一种恐惧吧
March 18th, 2008 at 1:07 am
I think it’s part of our desire to fill a void, by connecting to others. We think we will find the answers by looking outwardly, but really we are searching in vain. Our loves, people, the activities/hobbies that we enjoy are all that can satisfy us. But, there will always be some loneliness because we are human. We are never completely satisfied, are we?
April 9th, 2008 at 2:32 am
看来我们是身患同症。